Friday, January 30, 2009
hmm.. back to update..
wak up 2day at 7am , suppose to go to the market to buy something for my mum.. went there and to my horror , the shop will nt b open till next monday..~~~~ so went home and went back to slp.. wak up at arnd 9 , do the usuals and met up wif fish at the mrt and left for the make-up lesson.. -.- arrived in class and saw juz 9 ppl including me in the class.. tts like less than half of it..~~~~ bud lucky teacher taught some maths and said exam will be tested.. although i had no idea wats she's teaching , i juz jot down and try to unds it la.. lesson ended 1 hr , went out to do something bud soon found myself at home.. lols.. very very plain.. couldnt find anyting to do really as FM09 encountered some problem and now cannot be played.. had to pass to zhen han to clear soon.. =X hmm.. tts abt all for 2day.. tennis as usual tml.. hopefully something nice can happen here or there.. =X
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hmm.. i'm nt in the best of mood these days.. nt tt any1 makes me angry or wat la.. its juz tt i'm like too over troubled over certain issues la.. here and there , problems frm all over the place seems to be knocking on my door.. had to admit CNY had cheered up my mood alittle and mahjong managed to brg away some thoughts frm my mind bud they are still there at the end of the day although some is on the verge of being solved..
i haven reali told much ppl abt it.. i guess some might know most of it.. recovery mood is set for me , and i blive if no much setbacks happen , i will b able to snap out of my on-off mood and return cheerful soon..
hmm.. for the matter , wat i can sae is tt frm day1 tt i decide to go on this decision , i had already an idea juz how tough and near-impossible is the road ahead.. even if it means it will end up fruitless one day , i can say tt i wun ever regret it.. its juz had a special feeling and power to juz keep pushing me on..
i admit tt , ppl will doubt juz how strong and perharps even real the feelings is.. i can unds tt view.. afterall we were like juz strangers like a month ago or so , but wat i can sae is tt , as far as i'm concern , its definitely true on my side.. i dunno how to explain how it happen for me , bud it juz found it way to me.. i can say its like , i hav nvr really been so motivated to go for something.. and tt source of motivation is juz unexplainable.. i blive time will allow me to make myself known to u.. rushing things will not help for this matter.. hopefully some point in time , things might end up differently ba.. towards the good direction perharps..
FanG
Thursday, January 29, 2009
hmm.. back to update for 2dae..
hmm.. ytd had computer programming.. then talk to Mr Lim.. if i project get A , he treat me go eat.. swee ar.. sure ask thanu giv me A.. =X and went home..
2dae was rather ok.. started at 8am wif presentation for communications skills , had to wear formal.. lols.. so wear formal and took bus and mrt.. -.-
took a group photo wif some friends.. =)
had lunch at south canteen and go for EPC.. lols. David brought us sweets... thxs a million Mr David.. =x.. i will try to score in the exam wif ur sweets.. and left home soon after.. tml had to go sch for 1hr of maths.. -.- one freaking hr needs me to travel to YCK and back.. no choice also. la..=/
hmm.. chatted wif her tis few days.. plain chatting la.. din reali side-track alot.. juz usual questions la.. hopefully tt maks us on the right track..
FanG
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
hi.. back to update...
hmm.. started ytd wif a annual family trip to swensen's at Changi Airport T2.. is a yearly thing so as usual we went there for lunch.. hmm.. after tt towards the evening went to my cousin home.. hmm.. had a barbeque there.. CNY is always abt food.. =X hmm.. and ended ytd wif tt..
started today going to T2 again , tis time not for swensen's.. lols. my mum kinda hav the craving for this shop tt sells mee siam.. so we went there for brunch.. honestly , the taste was kinda sucky.. so went home to collect some stuff and went to my uncle home.. spent the rest of the day there.. played mahjong.. had a small loss.. bud was definitely enjoyable.. hmm.. my cousin is going to Australia for further studies.. wish her good luck ya.. =) din reali hav ani significant things happen la.. haha..
hmm.. din managed to talk to her ytd.. had a small chat wif her 2dae.. was hmm.. juz a plain chat la.. haha.. usual questions like hows ur new year and such.. frankly , miss her ya.. i personally wonder how mani ppl believed in falling in love wif some1 u had nvr met in person b4.. can ppl believe and accept tt..? hmm.. i personally believe in tt.. as i'm in such a situation right now.. =x do giv me opinions plz..
FanG
Sunday, January 25, 2009
hmm.. back to update..
happy chinese new year to all.. wish all a fruitful and happy year ahead..
started the day at arnd 9+am.. went to the market wif mum.. had a walk arnd and mum went to buy something.. went home earli as i ntk to do there.. hmm.. then at arnd 10+ , drove out to go for a car wash.. after tt returned home as mum prepare some food here and there.. at arnd evening , drove out again for reunion dinner at fortunate restaurant at toa payoh wif parents and uncle and aunty.. after tt return home to change some bedsheets and drove out again wif my dog hoping to see some fireworks when the clock strikes 12am , bud marina tis yr din hav any fireworks.. so sian1/2.. came back home and now is blogging.. lols.. ntk significant really happens la.. probably will be the reunion dinner ba..
hmm.. had a small chat wif her 2day.. although wasnt really long bud i guess was better than ntk.. haha... =)
FanG
Saturday, January 24, 2009
hmm.. back to review for 2day..
started the day with tennis training.. lols.. arrived wif fish and met jia ni.. went to mac to had breakfast.. ordered hotcakes.. it had been ages since i last ate hotcakes.. after breakfast met up wif jian zhou , and go for training.. training was rather normal 2day.. as usual , consistency is my biggest problem.. probably nids more training as well.. returned home and nap alittle b4 going to do some house-work.. go for a walk at the market juz nw at arnd night.. market was still doing business.. bought a pot of flowers and returned home liao.. watched naruto and nw ends up blogging nw.. kinda plain..
hmm.. din get to see her online 2day so ends up not chatting wif her.. hopefully she will recover fast and it being juz a normal illness without complications. miss her though.. and love her still..
FanG
Friday, January 23, 2009
hmm.. back to update.. had games wif shawn and kang juz nw.. =x
hmm.. had the whole day all on juz semestral project 2dae.. started at 8am.. i arrived at 8.15.. Jafar was later.. wahahha.. did 2nd round of soldering on a PC board.. was for the driver of the CD-Rom in the computer to open up.. soldered in a group of two , so paired wif firdaus.. did the soldering.. and went to test.. 1st rnd cnt work.. after trouble-shootig , found out the earth wire is loose.. -.- went to re-solder it.. and i 'magically' worked now.. so cleared tt and Jafar announced tt semestral project is also discharged.. tt means frm next friday onwards , i dun hav to go to sch.. wahhahaha.. hmm.. drove out to Jurong to buy shoes for presentation next week.. after tt went for lunch and then home ltr.. nap alittle while and then on the computer to do some stuff here and there.. and somehow here and there i ends the day wif blogging here.. lols..
hmm.. spoke wif her alittle 2day.. hmm.. found out somethings here and there.. hmm.. felt kinda sad over some of the issues.. bud of cos chose not to show it to her.. =/ (i guess tts the right ting to do for now) i guess for nw i juz hav to accept how tings is developing between us.. i cannot do much as well perharps.. prevention of her avoiding me is a top priorty.. so i guess i wun tell her i like her now ba.. perharps now is nt the time la.. although i also dunno when seems to b the right time..
i had to admit my temper had been rather bad this few days.. sorry to those i had flared up against.. especially shawn.. sorry bro.. din mean to flare bud i'm juz nt in the right frame of mind now to really think through too much.. i unds wat u r saying is the truth and facts bud i juz really dun wanna tink of all tt now.. the internal me seems to b calling help all the time and i seems like gonna breakdown soon although i really dun wanna go into tt state again.. i will try to compress my feelings so as nt to depress myself.. perharps its really time to find kang for a good chat.. alright ppl.. had to go now.. cca tml.. gdnite
FanG
Thursday, January 22, 2009
yo.. back to update.. vanished for a few days.. =X
tues was usual , ADE and EPC in the morning.. did the EPC practice during lunch break.. lucky english had discharge us frm the module , so english lesson time = lunch time.. went to amk wif fir.. ate at LJS.. eating at banquet also nt so ex.. -.- went for a short walk at amk hub b4 walking back to sch..
wed started wif C.programming.. did the usual.. and after tt was a study period of arnd 2hrs for communication skills theory exam.. went for the paper , made a perfect arrangement to sit near my fren and get hints frm him.. who noes , my seat table broke.. got to swap for another seat.. ends up doing the paper alone.. T.T i 'bombed' in the paper the whole way.. hopefully the 'bombing' can make me pass.. to fail communication is a huge joke.. lols.
2dae started wif communication skills , briefing for next week presentation.. i din reali hear much , was playing FM09 the whole way in the class.. i rmb she taught critical writing.. bud i din hear the lesson.. exam over liao ma.. =X after lunch was EPC practical test , woots.. i kana 2nd batch to be tested.. so i sat outside the class wif yan wei and zhen han , playing Big2 outside the class with the poker cards i had in my bag since the common test period when i get frm yan wei.. did the experiment , David said my front page reading is normal at the back page is totally wrong.. LOL.. bud still can pass.. =X then was home for me..
Shawn had returned frm his "loan deal" to a china company frm ngee ann poly.. is an attachment la.. he had returned tis week , welcome back shawn.. hopefully u doesnt hav the china accent and 4get all abt our beloved singlish and culture.. lols. will be making an outing soon after chinese new year and also after my schedule isnt so tight..
hmm.. past few days , din really talk wif her , nt becos i doesnt like her already (in fact i tink i love and miss her even more) , bud is like , i'm in a state of confusion.. confused over quite a number of possible issues that might surfaces after i told her i like her.. Kat urge me to tell her.. i was afraid tt i will send her running away frm me all the way 4ever.. so was tinking abt tt and also some other issues.. i guess i nid to weight in the factors and also see hows things developing on her side to mayb decide on my next move ba.. miss her as always.. ntk beats being abt to talk to her.. thxs Taylor Swift for singing tt sentence out in that song LoveStory: "i love you and thats all i really know".. i guess tt kinda suits me.. =)
FanG
Monday, January 19, 2009
hmm.. back to update..
ytd was a usual sunday , went out for lunch at toa payoh.. i realise nw tt drivers love to cut p-platers lane.. as if they wasnt p-platers b4.. -.- hmm.. played some games ytd.. went alittle emo towards the nite..
2day.. had maths in the morning.. and epc , went for lunch ltr at AMK hub.. returned for a lecture for ADE.. can die.. OngAC says tt we doesnt respect him.. good god.. if we doesnt , we wun b even in the lecture hall.. and he definitely fits in the bill of "Doesnt waste time in wasting time".. went for a chat wif fir at the 4th storey open space during maths lecture.. chat alittle and update each other on the problems development.. ltr on left sch earli liao.. skip the EPC lecture.. sorry Harry..
hmm.. the sme question is still ringing in my head despite being over for a few days already.. does brings me down at times but i juz cant go arnd wif a sad face and emo the whole day.. it will juz mak me worse.. so i try my best to cover up all this and b as cheerful and happy as i can.. although i know tt the heartache still doesnt escape frm me while i'm smiling.. not wearing a mask for any1.. juz trying to mak myself fewl better.. perharps one fine day , an answer might finally rings in.. even if it meant death for me , i guess i can b content to see her happy.. ridiculous it may be.. but it doesnt meant tt for me.. =)
FanG
Saturday, January 17, 2009
hmm.. back to update after skipping ytd..
ytd was a real plain day.. lesson was cancelled by jafar due to JAE stuff so ends up dun nid to go sch.. stayed at home played FM09.. assembled a wonderteam for Man United and played wif it.. stayed at home was much worse.. ends up keep letting my imagination go wild.. and juz like tt ended the day ytd..
2dae is much better.. started the day wif tennis.. met fish and jianzhou earlier to hav a game 1st b4 our trainig starts.. hmm.. and training start , practice those strokes again.. and had a couple of fun moments here and there.. after training went home and do some spring cleaning and played FM09 again.. and till here now blogging.. at least i can hav some jokes arnd wif ppl to release those thoughts in my mind..
hmm.. well.. wat can i say.. i reali had no idea now wats happening.. its like , wat m i able to do.. i reali dunno.. those thoughts of the possible problems is like real scary.. i hope none of them comes out true.. i really hope to help in some way somehow.. bud i guess theres ntk i can really do now.. other than to see and walk 1 step at a time i guess.. i prayed to God.. watever the damage is , inflict it on me.. even if its the deadliest disease , let her somehow recover and brg it to me.. seeing the situation is more disheartening than anything disease tt strikes on me.. stupid it may sounds , wat matters is it doesnt sounds to me..
FanG
Thursday, January 15, 2009
hmm.. back to review the day..
started it at 8am with communication skills mock test.. totally dunno how to do.. was too tough.. to fail and repeat communication skills i guess i nuts , so i had to study for tt soon.. after was EPC wif david.. sat wif doctor firdaus again , talk abt our problems faced and also joke arnd wif those apparatus.. after tt drop by at the RP to submit something b4 going back home..
hmm.. sat down during the lesson and talk to firdaus abt problems.. heard abt he and his beloved and was fewling kinda sad for them.. shall not really gonna go into wat happen.. bud i can sae tt we both hit a rather rough patch regarding the sme topic i guess.. for my side , i din really noe wat happen but i wish tt she could pull herself together and not b too sad.. i do really wan know wat happen so do tell me when u fewling better then.. shall stop here 4 2day i guess.. goodnite everybody..
FanG
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
hmm.. back to update for me..
started the day wif computer programming wif thanu.. had the whole day all for c-programming in the time-table.. was doing some function thing.. lols. hmm.. after tt was lunch b4 a make-up revision for communication skills. sat beside Mr Shen.. lols.. i guess we were joking and talking for the whole of the lecture.. =X went home frm sch after tt.. drop by at Lot1 to get a couple of things.. saw this guy at the entrance.. think his hands were disabled , almost sme to guy i will see at AMK hub area who had onli 1 arm. felt sad for them and did wat i can afford to do.. nt the most but hopeful it does help them alittle.
hmm.. seen Sean's blog post.. read abt his ambitions and thoughts he used to hav were now all mostly not fulfil due to some reasons here and there.. thought abt my own as well..
i guess my life hav been eventful but nvr glamorous.. i admit i used to hav this stupid cocky character and also dieing-to-win-all-fronts attitude.. and i felt like i'm the best person for any job in this world. this attitude got me few frens and a number of enemies.. i'm still able to graduate wif great frens arnd me. a problem wif me last time was my temper as well.. very hot-tempered and unreasonable as well.. i had good frens wif me during sec3.. but i'm the one who caused the break-up of the friendship wif them.. i'm the main cause of it.. honestly , till date i still regret my actions.. i also had to admit i sometimes also cannot unds wat i'm tinking.. i hav done actions i myself can nvr explain why either..
thank goodness , my temper had changed alot since.. i had also mould my character over time to a better 1 as well i guess.. perharps still not the best , but better than b4.. i'm more open now , i guess more friendly , wif much more self-confidence and perharps to notice more u might nid to know me to compare wif the old me. guess friends had been probably been very patient wif me over the years or i will lost all by now. =x
probably the most eventful and the most unglamorous was relationships i had here and there..
hmm.. started my 1st in sec3 and had quite a number more till date.. of cos none was successful due to a reason or two.. i can openly declare to all now tt is reading this now , its never my intention to be into so many relationships. never. all i wan since my 1st is a long-term fruitful relationship.. till date this perspective hav nvr change. shawn told me b4 tt perharps a wrong choice of ppl i chose contributed to the earli ending of those relationships. but wat i can sae is , disappointment is inevitable but good memories and experience from those relationship will definitely groom me into perharps a much better bf next time. of cos , looks and appearance wise , i'm not ideal or gorgeous in any way , i'm real fat and ugly =x.. bud i believe i will hav something else to offer if looks and appearance were not taken into account. bud then again , this is perharps how cruel the world currently is and we juz hav to accept tt.
at the moment , i hav some1 in my heart and mind already. although i dunno her too well yet as we juz know each other , i'm convinced tt i can build a lasting relationship with her. of cos , i dunno how she tinks of me now , too fast even for her to perharps put me into consideration.. bud all i can sae is tt , i will wait and enable better understanding between us if she nids the time.. i dunno if this might look stupid but i can sae i'm willing to do it..
i guess the old character shall be dead soon and will soon replace by a new and better soon.. and thus , i guess i shld sae tt the stinking character of The1Style will soon b dead and replaced by a better FanG.. and tt perharps will explain the Transform of The1Style to FanG.. a new me will soon b completed.. looks to perharps stay same , character changed for the better.. =)
FanG
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
hmm.. back to update..
started the day at 8am.. AE/DE wif ong.. he taught something abt diode practical. i din really do it. i was using com actuali. next up was computer programming with thanu.. he was teaching some 'function' and i was lost.. =x after that was a make-up lesson for EPC.. break soons follow.. and right after lunch was english presentation. hmm.. a group mate of ours was unable to attend over some reasons. so we presented without him.. Jenny promised tt he wun fail although he din present.. and the last lesson of the day was a maths lecture.. honestly , i was speaking to firdaus and zainul over some r/s issue.. and i was totally dunno wat the lecturer was talking (like how many in the LT was listening honestly).
hmm.. she is still troubled by her illness.. hopefully it wun b too serious.. juz a normal upset tummy will do. and will soon recover and nt b in pain le. nid any help do tell me k ? dun hestitate hor. =)
had a chat wif firdaus and zainul 2dae at lecture , had a chat wif kang n shawn as well juz nw , asking for their opinion over my problem. all offered me good solutions thxs guys. i will see what i can do from there.. =)
FanG
Monday, January 12, 2009
hmm.. back to update for 2day.. hmm.. review..
hmm.. started at 9am 2day.. maths lesson was 1st up.. learn alittle abt Root Mean Square. hmm.. next up was EPC wif david.. followed by 2 hrs break.. went to banquet at AMK central.. saw Kym Ng and and tt guy who act as "Kai Wang" at chn8 7pm show.. they were acting a new show there i guess.. lols. after tt went to AMK Hub for a walk before returning to sch for OngAC e-learning and lecture.. then go on to do the staff feedback stuff.. lols.. left after Ong's lecture.. =x was kinda quiet day for me la..
hmm.. she's still sick and honestly , i'm sad abt it.. how i wish i could b of some help to her other than juz by asking abt the condition.. hopefully shw could recover fast.. praying..
FanG
Sunday, January 11, 2009
hmm.. shall review abt 2dae.. sunday doesnt really do much 1.. =x
started the day at 10am or so.. lols. suddenly awakening.. then visited the bathroom.. did the usual and on the com in the morning.. ran the advanced systemcare for my toshiba and found 6000+ spyware installed in the com.. goodness.. acer had 1000+ and toshiba smash tt record by 6 times.. clear all those and as usual , drove out wif family at arnd 12pm++ for lunch.. went to ABC market at alexandra.. hmm.. had lunch there.. before returning at arnd 3+ online-ed awhile before offing it and went to watch tv.. onlined again at arnd 6+ and till now was blogging.. ntk significant happen in my usual sunday life.
hmm.. saw her online tis morning.. chatted alittle and found out tt illness had visited her.. hmm.. hurts to see her tied down by a couple of illness.. hopefully God bless her recovery soon and clear her pains away.. was off till night then was able to continue the chat wif her.. guess she's having kinda a hard time with illness.. sian.. i shld hav studied harder when i'm young so that i could b a undergrad doctor now.. then i could hav a few techniques of pain-relieving.. couldnt really do much now either.. only hoping that prayers will b answered by God above..
shall go for now then.. goodnite guys.. swt dreams as well ppl.
FanG
hmm.. back to update..
hmm.. wak up earli 2dae.. went to school for tennis.. had a brief basketball game wif jian zhou , fish and soon hwee b4 we went for tennis training.. coach arrive 2dae wif my new racket. lols. looks great and felt great too.. went on to pay $80 for tennis fees and $70 for the racket. lols. after training met-up wif fish's frens.. eunice and laura.. toured alittle in nyp.. before going home..
hmm.. went home wif a headache.. and went to slp till arnd 12am i guess.. woke up and saw the Arsenal V Bolton at half time. lols. then went on to watch Bendtner score near the end and win the game for Arsenal.
Din managed to see her online again.. i guess it could b tt she's online and i was sleeping or she was too busy again.. missing her really.. and for now i guess i can only wait for her to online and chat wif her tts all..
alrights.. guess i shld stop for now.. gonna go slp now then.. gdnite ppl..
Friday, January 09, 2009
hmm.. updates for 2day..
started the day at 8am.. kinda short day on friday.. 8am to 11am is all juz for semestral projects.. submit my soldering and told jafar my prob.. he said i dun hav to re-do as at least the effort is there to do it myself and nt pay uncle do.. =x then learned how to trouble shoot the things.. had to submit the report by 2nite bud 4got abt it.. i guess i shall do tml then. =x
after that went to the auditorium to collect those open house notes for alicia. lols. the goodie bag area refuse to gav me 1. -.- guess given too many goodie bag ytd and half of those were taking by in-house students.. =x i'm one of them as well..
drop by at alicia's house and gav her those notes and also configure some games to her com.. and went home after that.. was playing CoD4 again.. the story is great.. so juz kip re-playing.. =x their modern warfare rocks.. hehe..
hmm.. din managed to chat wif her 2day.. guess she's busy so din use com.. well.. i guess tts ok.. shall mayb chat wif her tml then.. =/
alrights.. tennis tml. so had to report to my bed earli.. gdnite people..
FanG
Thursday, January 08, 2009
hmm.. shall review for 2day..
2day lesson started at 8am with communications skills.. Amelia tell us our schedule and i was like.. "test next week ? or another week ?" i guess shall update with some1 else. lols.. once again guilty of nt paying attention in class.. =x.. had 3 hrs of lesson b4 a break of 1hr. lols. stayed back in class as openhouse cause the canteen to b even more packed.. -.- draw on the whiteboard wif all sorts of diagrams and words.. was seems to b going all out to use finish the ink.
after that was two hrs of electrical circuits wif David.. lols.. sat with firdaus and we can hardly focus 2gther.. i rmb he was teaching us how to use the apparatus to see AC diagram or something. and all i did was playing arnd wif it.. =X
-Doctor Firdaus diagnose your heartbeat is beyond help. Coffin inevitable.
-Doctor Firdaus diagnose your heartbeat is beyond him. Specialist inevitable
-Doctor Firdaus pronounced you dead. How sad
after that was to terrorise the open house for goodies.. hmm.. got a goodie bag , a can of nescafe , some bookmarks , some sweets , jap green tea frm the cultural club and a upclose look on taufik.. lols.. bud he sang all malay songs.. -.- after tt was home for me.. lols..
was doing soldering at home.. tml had to submit.. was crappy-ly done.. even i was so ashamed of it.. =/ seems like all bird shyts arnd.. =X and best done the chip the wrong way and might hav to re-do.. -.- wasted 4hrs of time.. do a waste product.. T.T
hmm.. moving on.. well.. chatted wif her alittle here and there.. she seems busy.. some impt things for her to do i guess.. she still seems troubled.. hopefully trouble will leave her and happiness will arrive soon.. =)
hmm.. alright.. had to go sch tml.. earli again.. 8am.. -.- to submit tt badly done project.. hope jafar dun slap me.. =X ok.. go to bed now then.. goodnite.. swt dreams..
FanG
Alrights... hmm... a review for wat i had done 4 2dae..
hmm.. started the day as usual.. 9am lesson 2dae for me.. started the day wif computer programming.. in fact the whole of wednesday was always dedicated to computer programming.. so had a 4 hrs of tt lesson , all i rmb was , i learned array 2dae.. other than that was all juz words.. lesson ended at 1pm and was the end of the day in sch..
copy-ed a few benefits from benedict.. =X and then went home.. had to complete the EP7 lab report.. had no idea how to do.. so had to rely alittle on Harry Foo (yeah i know his name is weird) for some of the ans..
not forgeting gotten a few songs from Mr Leong.. lols.. thxs lom.. =x
got to know Angie 2day.. Hi Angie.. =) she's certainly a very special person who nvr shows her unhappiness arnd. dun bottle up too much sometimes.. it could b bad for health.. juz pour some out on me if u dun mind.. =) my ear will always b there waiting..
hmm.. going on ok.. had quite a mix day la.. notice a few changes once in a while arnd as i'm chatting with her.. and i'm rather confused.. i guess the best way to discribe it was through football:
the situation seems like i had conceded a last min goal. And after the goal , the difference is here..
Either
A) With the score at 2-1 to my advantage
-meant tt i still stand a chance to win her.
B)With the score at 1-1 all tied
-meant tt i'm back to square 1
C)With the score at 0-1 to my disadvantage
-meant tt i hav lost her totally
i certainly hope is the 1st option though. so tt i will win her.. bud i guess all this will still hav to very much flow with nature for now.. guess giving it sometimes might change a thing or two. tts all for now.. goodnite all.. swt dreams..
and i certainly enjoyed chatting wif her..=)
FanG
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Wooo... long day for me 2day.. lols..
started lesson at 8am 2day , arrived late at arnd 8.15pm.. =x Ong was teaching some diode tingy.. didnt reali hear much also. lols. next lesson was programming.. well.. hated that.. lols.. cos programming is hard for me la.. i dun realli noe how to write a program also..
half way through , i rmb that i 4get to bring the presentation materials for 2dae.. lucky Jenny was good , allowed me our group to pass up tml. thxs jenny..=) following that was a 2 hrs brk b4 the english lesson with Jenny , maths lecture 2day was to do the notebook quiz.. didnt hav to even do it.. 15mins after the quiz start , answers was shouted out arnd already.. like "B,D,D,B,A" for the 5 questions. one wrong all wrong. LOL..
arrived home at arnd 5+ , showered and dinnered arnd 6pm b4 moving to do my stuff.. had a good chat wif shawn.. thxs for the advice man.. and was preparing the package for the project to pass up tml , had to search the whole house for a suitable size recycled box and wrap it up with paper and place the stuff in.. lols.. kinda a tedious job.. and the workmanship looks kinda sucky.. LOL.. and now was blogging here.. lols..
hmm.. i kinda find myself having a crush on her which i can nvr reali explain how it happen.. frankly , it seems tt she hav tt kind of a unique appeal that i had nvr been able to find elsewhere b4 and tt had kinda attracted me.. =X i guess it will b crazy to even let her noe abt it now as this is definitely not the time.. probably shall let things flow with nature for now and see how things develop frm there then.
hmm.. programming lessons tml again.. -.- kinda hate that.. but no choice , juz go along with it. early day tml again so had to go and prepare myself to sleep already.. goodnite swt dreams. and definitely with her face in my mind 2nite.
FanG
I guess i'm late in naming my new year resolutions for 2009.. lols.
New Year Resolutions for 2009 (not in ranking order):
-To improve my grades in Poly.
-To try to lose weight.
-To do a better job helping friends around me.
-To hopefully not die and survive through 2009.
-To carry on supporting Arsenal.
-To improve on tennis skills.
-To find a girl who is willing to love me truly and stick through thick and thin for a long-term relationship.
-People around me to stay happy and loving [for those with their partners already].
-To focus in class. LOL.
Thats all for now. LOL. Posting in class now , so shall return to lesson now.
FanG
Monday, January 05, 2009
It had been more than a year since i last posted here.. After abandoning blogging more than a year ago , i had returned to the blogging world with:
- new skin
- new updates on profiles
- became a better man than before =)
Ok. Major updates for myself. In case some still didnt know..
I had graduated from ITE march last year and had join NYP in april last year. It was very much a dream come true for me as i had been always yearning to set foot into the Poly World. Of cos , now i had to work harder to keep the dream going.
Romance wasnt really been a high in year 2008. So i began 2009 as Officially Single.
In 2008 , i experienced major changes in my life. Not only for getting into Poly , i had also passed my driving test late september last year so therefore now , i'm an Offical P-Plater as well.
Friendship had been very much a topsy-turvy for me in 2008. New friends enter my life while some old friends drifted away from me. I had also seen my best friends enter changes. Not forgetting , my undisputed best friend shawn had gone on to end the last quarter of 2008 in China as being sent on attachment. I also witness the major change in one of my used-to-be best friend , whom i now totally find us drifting away so much that he's now seems only juz a good friend. Perharps communication plays a part in the melting down of our friendship but the major fact is that i can no longer agree with the way he treats people who loves him.
I believe maturity and experiences with people around me had groom my mind to which i no longer share his views totwards his relationship issues. Granted , his own relationship issues are meant to be only handled by himself , but i hope that he will see that his decision will not just affect him and the 'her' , but also people around him at the 'her'. His decision-making had gone on to hurt not only one 'her' , but quite a few of them which all turns out to be people i know. To see people around me being sad and strangled , moving towards emotional breakdown is the last thing i wanna see on planet Earth. Therefore , i always careful consider any decision i made. To be there to lend a ear to people around me and helping them solve their issues is also what i'm always willing to do. But to see my former best friend making them sad one by one is making me feeling sick towards him. I wish i could somehow slap him and knock some sense into him , maybe even bring him to see things my way. but i know that isnt gonna happen. I hope he will mend his ways soon.
Hobby in 2008 had been very much the same. The usual watching of every Arsenal matches still happens , ranging from the Friendlies to the Champions League matches. 2008 also had me picking up a new sports. Tennis is fun and i certainly enjoyed every minute of it so far , alongside the company of the coach , buddies and friends in it. Though i'm still not able to play the sports well , i believe improvement of my skills is happening in every tennis lesson of mine.
Till date , 2009 had so far been a nice year for me , 5 days into 2009 and we had a holiday(1st) and a weekend(3rd and 4th) , leaving just two working days although that is gonna change soon.
I hope that 2008 had been able to provide you people with nice memories ahead of the bad ones and 2009 will be a fruitful and fulfilling year to all.
Belated Happy New Year to all and i promise to blog often when i have the time.
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{personal message to him}
Though you do not tell me , don't assume that i totally don't know what you had done. No matter what others comment about your actions , i had always included u as my best friend. But you had certainly disappoint me so much now that i totally don't know you anymore. What cause you to become like this , that i really wish to know. Among the 5 of us , u had had the biggest change towards the worst. I strongly hope that till you had been able to correct your perspective towards romance , please do not go on to hurt anyone else anymore. i seen you hurt 3 precious people around me , i don't want to see a fourth. This is an advice as well as a warning to you. Please reflect on yourself why are old precious friends leaving you one after another.
FanG
