yo ppl.. hmm.. kinda a emo post here though.. lol..

i regard 2dae as one of the worst days that i ever had.. i had all along hate it when ppl wearing mask and pretending all that.. bud i 2dae had done juz that.. i guess its the right thing to do though..

it kinda pains me.. to see them kinda close 2gther.. although i understand that its neither of their fault though.. bud i juz cant really accept it now and got alittle emo towards the end.. i juz try my best to put on a smile here and there and list being tired as a reason for my sudden silence.. although i noe deep in me.. that being tired as nvr the reason.. sorry to them.. i did my best to control.. when i'm alone , i really cant help bud b sad.. i try to joke arnd , to brg up the mood arnd and also mine.. bud i guess when alone , in the nite , on my bed , i hav to accept it.. that emotions is overflowing.. i know i'm being very stupid , selfish , too emotional and such.. bud i guess i done my best..

i dun blame them.. cos i noe , its nt their fault.. its nvr their fault.. i guess destiny juz doesnt really favours me now.. i hav to admit that understanding is one thing , to accept gracefully is another.. i have done the 1st , the 2nd i'm still doing my best.. hopefully i will recover fast.. hopefully..

FanG

11:27 PM

Friday, June 05, 2009

right.. back to update alittle..

past few days was pretty normal.. had lab test on wed.. ntk much la.. then quiz on thurs.. all was able to struggle through thxs to master beside me..

had tennis 2day.. hmm.. friday was the only day i will get to see her in a week.. was v happy.. played alittle here and there.. was v happy to have her beside there.. hmm.. i had a rival.. who happens to be in the sme session with me likes her as well.. wasnt able to concentrate ltr on when he arrived.. i noe i shldnt react like tt.. bud i really cant control.. i was like once in a while glancing at them.. i guess my easily-aroused jealousy does go on to kill me sometimes.. i promise i will change.. bud frm this , i can sae tt at least i know... tt i'm serious.. i hope she doesnt get to read this part..

was having really blank mind since i come back frm tennis.. i dunno wat i'm doing and y m i doing those stuff i did.. really like damn blur stage.. dunno wats happening.. probably tml my senses will return.. hopefully God does let things go my way for once..

FanG

10:13 PM

Lim Fang Zhen Benjamin
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Officially Single
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College History:
Nanyang Polytechnic 2008-2011
ITE College West (Dover) 2006-2008
Teck Whye Secondary School 2002-2005
Teck Whye Primary School 1996-2001

I carry the proud name of
Lim Fang Zhen
nicknames such as 'The1Style' and 'FanG'.
A Father from a church named me Benjamin for my english name but i hasnt been really using it..
I officially increase an addition year to my age on every 16 of October.
I hate loneliness and therefore yearn for company from my great friends and family members around me.
Football have gradually grown to be a part of my life and have got me attracted to the Pride of London Football proven by statistics
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-Never be too choosy on someone as others might be doing the same to you as well.

-Looks Depreciate over time , Values and Personality improves and stay with you over time. So don't be too particular over looks.

-Nobody is perfect , so Live and Let Live.

-Never condemn a relationship as success/failure in relationship is never determine by what others say and your previous relationship history.

-Never point fault when any problem happen , always source for solutions to solve it first.

-Its the differences between us that attract and accept each other. In Love, its not a journey of finding that perfect someone, its a search for finding someone who will loves and accept us for what we are, vice versa.

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