June 12, 2009.. The last post i made..

March 22, 2012.. Three years had passed.. how has it been..? so much had changed.. the mentality, the situation, the reality..

The 'her' whom i yearn for at that very point of June 12, 2009 had lived through her life, while i had lived through mine.. so much had happened..

-i had my own 'her', she cheated on me and left me..
-she returned after being ditched and i rejected her at first before accepting her again later..
-i couldn't find that trust anymore and she left me again..
-my dad being unable to work anymore..
-she's attached to some1 better now..

from a student, to an NSF to the lead of the house.. it all just happened way too fast for me.. i couldn't react fast enough, i cant react well enough.. i'm very sorry for mistreating her.. i din mean all that.. the objection was too strong, even i myself cant convince myself to trust you again.. i love you.. i nvr lie abt that.. i really do.. but i know i juz cant forget that moment.. at 2.45am under your house, that image had nvr left my mind.. i cant forget that.. i'm sorry, mayb i shldn't had been so selfish.. i'm glad you found someone so much better than me now.. some1 who can treat you the way u shld be treated..

from an obese student of 119.7kg, i underwent my Obese BMT just as any soldier.. during which i lost weight till 89.7kg when i POP-ed.. but i lost more than just weight.. my family lost the ability to sustain.. i do not know sometimes how do i even supposed to react.. i, all of a sudden, is now the lead of the house.. i do not know if i'm able to tide my family over this crisis.. all i know is that, i cant fail.. i can only do anything within my means to succeed..

so much had happened.. in these 3yrs.. so much... i gained so much friends along the way as well.. but i know, one thing i will look back and regret is that i done wrong to a person i once vowed to treat her well..

6:55 PM

Lim Fang Zhen Benjamin
22+
Officially Single
National Service
RSAF

College History:
Nanyang Polytechnic 2008-2011
ITE College West (Dover) 2006-2008
Teck Whye Secondary School 2002-2005
Teck Whye Primary School 1996-2001

I carry the proud name of
Lim Fang Zhen
nicknames such as 'The1Style' and 'FanG'.
A Father from a church named me Benjamin for my english name but i hasnt been really using it..
I officially increase an addition year to my age on every 16 of October.
I hate loneliness and therefore yearn for company from my great friends and family members around me.
Football have gradually grown to be a part of my life and have got me attracted to the Pride of London Football proven by statistics
Arsenal F.C.


-Never be too choosy on someone as others might be doing the same to you as well.

-Looks Depreciate over time , Values and Personality improves and stay with you over time. So don't be too particular over looks.

-Nobody is perfect , so Live and Let Live.

-Never condemn a relationship as success/failure in relationship is never determine by what others say and your previous relationship history.

-Never point fault when any problem happen , always source for solutions to solve it first.

-Its the differences between us that attract and accept each other. In Love, its not a journey of finding that perfect someone, its a search for finding someone who will loves and accept us for what we are, vice versa.

Thats all for now





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