yo..back to update..v sway 2dae la..haiz..

2dae is a sway dae for me..at 1st , all were fine..bud..when i online , i deserved death..my gf is v angry wif me..i reali fewl lyk dying..let me sae y..

b4 she is wif me , she lyk a guy named A.. nw tt she is wif me , A is nw her daddie.. bud then , i hav seen her rather close to her daddie..well fine..bud 2dae , dunno how it happen..i juz gt jealous..tis morning , i had a nightmare , i dreamt tt she is v cold to me n brk up wif me..i wok up crying..probably even hav to dry my pillow under the sun..then i msg her..i told her tt i m v afraid tt she will leave me..n ask her nvr to b cold me..she sae she din msg me much ytd cos she was saving her bills..well fine wif me..bud then when i online , i saw her personal message wrote:" sayang A daddie , dun b sadd.." i began to fewl alittle jealous..cos my dae was reali v affected by the dream i had tis morning..so i wrote my nick:"wonder hu cn ensure tt the dream wun happen.."..i was waiting for her to tell me tt she will b the 1 to ensure for she cn onli b tt 1 to ensure..bud i was shocked when she ask me wat did i dream..i m lyk , "didnt i msg u to tell u abt it..n it is juz slightly half a dae back n u forget abt it"..then i look at her personal msg again..n i tot for awhile..the stupid tinking came.."she rmbs abt A bud forgets abt me..i din demand her to display , bud at least to rmb..haiz.."..i began to fewl jealous..afterall , A is the guy she lyk b4 being wif me..then i told her my dae was down..she asked me y..i sae i din reali noe y too..she then added tt our gap (mine n her) is expanding fast..so i fewl i shld tell her how i fewl..so i told her abt me fewling jealous..she is v angry after tt..she sae i m too much..after tt , i cn fewl her anger le..

Nw my reflections:
i admit tt i m wrong..i m too much..certainly..i dunno y i cn tink lyk tt 2dae..i reali dunno..i juz had tt stupid tinking..mayb it is cause by tt dream i had tis morning..well it is all my fault..i admit..

My message to her:
My dear , if u happen to b reading tis , i juz wan let u noe , i m v sori to u..i m v sori for nt having to trust u 4 tt n had actuali gt jealous..it is all my fault..i m v sori..i shld hav trust u..i noe u r v angry wif me..for nt trusting u..for nt understanding ur fewling n stress u r facing..bud i m oso v disappointed wif myself..v disappointed tt i hav allow the gap between us to expand..disappointed tt i hav been such a idoit in giving u more sadness , stress n headache..n most importantly , disappointed tt i hav made u cry..i haven been the best..i admit..i noe i m v inconsiderant in terms of ur fewlings..bud i hav to sae is i hav been doing my best to b the best to u.. i noe i m nt a gd bf..i m probably the worst bf in the world..i noe i had been such a numbskull into being ppl boyfren.. i reali cnt consider for how ppl fewl..when i m without 1 , i complain wifout 1..when i hav u , i do nt cherish u..i reali v sad..reali reali v sad..i m a failure..a disaster..i rmb alicia once sae tis to me , "u cn b my gd fren n gd listener , there for me all the tym..bud u r nt wat i regard as a gd bf.."..nw i understand tt totali..yes..i m a failure in terms of romance..an utter failure..till the extend tt mayb shawn liew is better than me..for the fact tt i do nt noe how to reali go express my love or concern for my gf..i m a failure..i noe i hav nt been able to b there for u..i cnt even do a ting for u..so i admit tt i m a failure..i cnt even protect u or tok u in to nt injure urself animore..i nid sharon to tok u in..i cnt even do a small ting..i onli noe how to mak u angry..mak u v sad n cry..add more stress to u..i reali regret nt able to b a gd bf to u..though nw tt we hav nt broken up , bud i reali fewl v sad..i sincerely wishes for a 2nd chance frm u..to treat u better..i promise to b more considerate..i promise i will change..i reali do nt wan to lose u..i m v sori..

will u forgiv me ?

8:55 PM

Lim Fang Zhen Benjamin
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Officially Single
National Service
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College History:
Nanyang Polytechnic 2008-2011
ITE College West (Dover) 2006-2008
Teck Whye Secondary School 2002-2005
Teck Whye Primary School 1996-2001

I carry the proud name of
Lim Fang Zhen
nicknames such as 'The1Style' and 'FanG'.
A Father from a church named me Benjamin for my english name but i hasnt been really using it..
I officially increase an addition year to my age on every 16 of October.
I hate loneliness and therefore yearn for company from my great friends and family members around me.
Football have gradually grown to be a part of my life and have got me attracted to the Pride of London Football proven by statistics
Arsenal F.C.


-Never be too choosy on someone as others might be doing the same to you as well.

-Looks Depreciate over time , Values and Personality improves and stay with you over time. So don't be too particular over looks.

-Nobody is perfect , so Live and Let Live.

-Never condemn a relationship as success/failure in relationship is never determine by what others say and your previous relationship history.

-Never point fault when any problem happen , always source for solutions to solve it first.

-Its the differences between us that attract and accept each other. In Love, its not a journey of finding that perfect someone, its a search for finding someone who will loves and accept us for what we are, vice versa.

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